Really excited about my Friday Night Essence.
I am itching to join the Neothink Society. But I am holding off with DTC. For the first time in my life I can see my future. I have tried to set up my mini-days in the past and it never felt right. I just could not get my ‘Friday-Night-Essence’.
Now… for the first time I have managed to build my mini day schedule from top to bottom. I can see exactly what I need to do to grow my essence. …Not only that I know the exact actions I need to take… This is Cassandras Secret. Now I know what Mr Hamilton was talking about when he once talked about every cell of his body tingling… sorry they are not his exact words… I’m paraphrasing.
I just don’t feel right joining the society until I have acheived a little of my essence first… I want to be able to offer something of value before I join. Not only that, I don’t want to be in a position of struggling to pay my membership every month. I am in the middle of paying my debts off. Now I am integrating, I am not finding paying my debts of as difficult as I thought. In fact, every time I pay a bit more of my schedule payments off, that in its self is a great feeling.
I fell of integrating Neothink for a long time… and even suffered a nervous breakdown. Even came close to suicide. This is a very personal thing to admit. But I know I am among people who understand how the anticivilization can ‘rape’ the soul.
When I look at my Mini-Day schedule now… I cannot describe how excited I am. It is like looking into a chrystal ball… but one stripped of all mysticism, where I can fully see my reality. It is like seeing the future now.
For the first time in a long time I feel truly happy again. I’m still in a dead end job. But actually have a strong image in my mind, of the day I resign.
My short term goal reads as follows:
‘I rapidly attract a comfortable home based income, that allows me to resign from my day job’
I have much bigger goals which I won’t yet mention here.
